Impossible

"Baby, no worries, i promise to get us back, i know sorries, just wouldn't do it, her heart is obliterated and im tryna travel through but its like moving mountains."

Waaassssssuuuuuppppppp

Last night was CRAZY, lets say i was the most sober than mostly everyone hahaha went to hayward hills cal state east bay to see the view ONCE AGAIN. but its always the best up there, to see that view, damn. Oh yeah before all that we went to rock the night to show some support to the best performers "the cool kids and trina alex and sa" hahahaha they were the bessstttt. But yeah bout to watch i love you beth cooper or bruno tonight with cousins, maybe this will help me get my mind off things even more han just staying in this boring ass houseeee. ight ima cut out now, laterrr


in my book, youre already that 20 min. and 14.72 miles away.

She so fineeeee

Summmmer

So so far its been cool, last night thooo, transformers was coo but it was hella long but worth it. Hella packed and this dude in front of me gave me no fuckin leg room, its good tho. Someone was being stubborn and didnt want to sit next to me, lol, and gb haha sitting alone. i tried to make it the least awkward for him tho =) hahaha but yeah, good ass night then knocked out.

Back,

BACK THE F/CK UP NIGGA

Never

You're never gonna have it your way. It's never gonna be like how you want it to end up. So stop hoping for nothing.

Different

somethings wrong...?

HOT

It was hot today! Walked my lazy ass all the way home. Bout to leave this boring house!!! What's up for tomorrow, my schedule suddenly got cleared.

It has been confirmed

You really aren't... aha

I had

No where else to go, and i hit u up. But you were to busy. I was in need to find someone to hang out with cuz somn happened, but....VVVVV


Conclusion: You're not always gonna be there for me.

This school year.

This school year is almost over! Wassup summer 09! Well this is the first year i ever am taking summer school cuz i hella messed up this year. Lol but that was probably the only bad thing about this year. One positive thing was that i gained a lot of new friends, and i got CLOSER to a lot more people than i could've imagined, The beginnings of my STREET FAMILY ya dig. And i am still goin strong with my One n Only =))) hahaha. But yeah, school went by hella fast, can't believe that were gonna be juniors next year guys!!! Hope everything stays gooood the way it is right now.... But im out... prolly hit this up a little later and write a post on a deeper level. LATE

Even though we aren't as close as we used to be....

Blood will ALWAYS be thicker than water ...

Bitter,

I see your bitterness because in the end, you didn't get what u wanted.... that sucks

Damn, its already MAY!

Theres only like 31 more school days left!!!! Can't wait for summer 09 but i got stupid ass summer school for the first time ever. Cuz my stupid ass decided to fuck up this year, lol. It's all good tho cuz hella ppl are goin this year n its gon be hella chill. I haven't been keeping this thing updated lately so here is whats been happening since uh thursday, april 30, 2009.

THURSDAY APRIL 30, 2009

That day was incredible, one year tho! hella days <3 got a promise ring n evverythingg. Everyone participated in it, but i didn't see one person, sucks. That whole day was hella intense tho, cuz i had a comeback to her thing that she did for me, cuz i guess hers was supposed to be a surprise, well it WASNT! hahahahahah i ditched my 5th period to look for her, n she ditched her 5th period to look for me, hah! "the day of the corny" -frances. After school, she had to go do her musical and i had to go home, but when it finished we got to hang out for a little at american, then just go home, that day made me happy, even though it was while we had testing =| Actually ended on a good note.

FRIDAY MAY 1, 2009

Last day of testing, end of a boring ass week! Sat doing nothing in all the periods except the testing periods. Then after school got dropped off at adrians n played cod4 with steven for a lil then got picked up. I wish i nvr left adrians, i was hella f/ckin bored at home, so i asked christine to do work n do what she always does, so she drove us to adrians again with asia n gb to chill, we got tap and all that then went home at like 1, thanks christine for lettin me do work too! hahaha

SATURDAY MAY 2, 2009

Woke up at like 7 in the morning for confirmation at the oakland cathedral with kirs, ateh chantal, and ryan to support my cousins crystle, neil, gb, david n everyone. It was hella raining, but we had umbrellas, turned out that jeremy, christine, and adrienne were there too, so we chilled for like 5 minutes after until the cameras were pulled out n everyone was takin pics with everyone, congratulations to all you guys taht confirmed tho! After, we went to bobby's bamboo grill to eat, then to uncle ryan's house to chill, then back to kirs' house to watch the pacquiao fight, he slept that nigga hatton tho, pacman is the best dude, freal tho. He came up to the top in no sweat. The house was goin crazy n im preeetttttyyy suuuurrree it was the same in every other house. Fell asleep for a lil after, then went back home n did some grown man business n stayed out till 3. got some jack in the box. then finally went back home n slept.

SUNDAY MAY 3, 2009

Someone called me like 5 times, n turns out it was trina, so i called her back to see what she wanted. She asked me to get ready in less than 20 minutes and be her escort in this one miss RP pageant in san francisco, so i went n took a shower n put on a black suit n left, haha hella last minute. It was fun hangin out with her tho, kinna scary cuz her mom was there, n everything is a secret! It was nice bein in the city, but it was an ugly ass day. After, we went back to the gomez's house and watched the pacquiao fight again cuz trina didnt get to watch it, and then the movie that they rented. Got picked up then went home, then went to sleep hella fast!

TODAY was boring, eff school man. i get hella missed calls from ppl who say they didnt evencall me, my fone might be effin up. Things with the whole albino situation finally shot up, and everything was happenin today, at brunch and lunch and after school, nvr seen so many ppl by those tables or in front of the cafeteria before. He made an apology video go watch it, hahaha.

Oh yeah, Star Testing...

Boring

4/20

Nice asss HOT! day =) hehehehe

Lessss gooooooooooooooooooooooo. ;)

Happy Birthday Christine! Goooodbye Spring Break =/

I hope you had a great one christine!! 16 yrs old. hella old. Ahahahahahh. Its okay tho! She'll be drriving sooon n she can do whatever she likeeee!






So long, and farewell, spring break =( I tried my best to make the most of it, didn't really come out the way i wanted it to!!!

Highlights:
-Easter w/ the fammm
-Swimmmmmmming
-Joyridinggg
-Adventure near Christa's new condo
-See my babes since the day we got out
-Kick back and relax for a day
-Chill w/ adrienne n chopped it up
-Whole day with babe at my house, made up <3
-Melvin's going away cake
-Chillin w/ niggas at stine's bday party
-LAST DAY!!! Cienna's 3rd Birthday party, NICE ASS WEATHER, JOYRIDE W/ ADRIENNE.

Somewhat successful, but F/CK! I didn't do any of my hw!!! =((((

Its w.e. =/ i hate schoooool, ima go to sleep now tho, gooooooooooodnight. And see everyone at school tomorrrrroooowww >=(

Spring break

is basically over =/

i have hellllla hw!!! mann =( it was fun while it lasted tho.

Believe In Change

I believe in change. End of story.

"We started out so strong, and promised we would last forever"

"We keep goin back and forth, and now, this love's on life-support, and i, can't go through this no more, so i just wanted to, put in my two week notice"

hmmmm, thats a nice song, if thats how you feel. NOT ME

Time passes by quickly

Top= Freshman year, Bottom= Sophomore year. Dang, already a sophomore in highschool, Time is goin by tooooo fast! I miss all the memories from jr. high, even freshman year haha. GOOD ASS TIMES!!! Im going to try to live it up, make the most of life, and have fun. No time for drama, gotta make this life memorable, even though i have a long way to go! HIGH SCHOOL, especially, i have to make several of the BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE, the best that they can be, And not let anything phase me or get in the way of me havin fun, Its all on me now, with my family and friends i will make the most of what i have =)

WORD!

The Greatest Irony of Love

The greatest irony of love;loving the right person at the wrong time,having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after
that person walks out of your life...and sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again...for some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person...in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love
being held by someone else...most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. it's just that one was being loved too much and the
other was being loved too little...as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right... most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for passing time. while the one who truly
loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...so here's a piece of advice;let go when you're hurting too much. give up when love isn't enough. and move on when things are not like before...For sure there is someone out there Who will love you even more..

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.
You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you; that's why it's called falling in love, because you don't need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return. How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

OOOH i Can't BELIEVE it.

So today, it was pretty chill. Hella cold tho! I wasted my time goin to my stupid orthodontist appt. because all they did was look at my teeth, and said," Look's like the spring is working, well that's all for today, see you in a month!" I was like... WTF! THATS IT!!!! Hahahah, but then my parents brought me to chipotle after, and i was satisfied with my chicken burrito with mild salsa sour cream lettuce and extra cheese. SCRUMPTIOUS :D

Let's hit this down to a deeeeeper level. So i been thinking, and thinking, and thinking, aloooot about a lot of different things, but mostly about my relationships with people, one in particular. I don't know what to do =/ it just seems like in this stage of "restoration" or w.e. its called, its going NO WHERE, and yeah, HELP ME!!! I honestly don't know what to do, and i do not want to be stuck in this situation any longer than i have been.... which is too long. So yeah i guess i have ALLOOOTTT more thinking to do =/ Gooooodbye.

OVERWHELMED!!!!

Man oh man, spring break.....

Okay, so spring break so far, has been preeettttyyyy chill. The weather has been... Okaaay, but not great or perfect as i wanted. I haven't had a long, focused post in a lonnnggg timeee. So here it is.

Lookin forward for what the rest of spring break has in store... These past few days, other than hangin w/ the fam n friends, has been so stressful. A lot has been happenin, in too small an amount of time, that i JUST CANNOT HANDLE IT!!! One situation in particular, i feel held back, not being able to do what i am capable of... I just can't, and i hope i am making the correct decision. BUT! i shall enjoy what's is goin on right now, and not let it phase me!!! Well i spent all this time since i got off the phone, to think, and now i am TIRED!!! so im gonna get off this BLOGSPOT and hit the sheets.... GOOODNIGHT =| .......

"True love will never fade unless it was a lie"

&&&&&&&

"People think it's holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go"

Spring Breaaaak!!!!!

Its bout to be hella chill =) I really needed this break off school. SCHOOL IS SO CLOSE TO BEING OVER THO! Hella happy n shitt. Oh and excited for the end of this month feeeeeeeeelme. Yeah, but im bout to cut out, post up a longer, typa chop it up post l8r. OUTTT

Do not....

Do not, tell me to stop bringing up the past, when its what made us come this far in the first place...... thanks, k gnight!

Just let it go

self-explanitory....

Congrats...

To the 11. Feelin like you're about to give up. I hope im wrong. Goodnight. =/

"It's crazy to know that you would still be there, and i want you to know that ill be here till my hair falls out, and shining when the lights burn out..." -C. Cendana

GJJ

"In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

Resistence is Futile

There's no other way that i can put it, except that im fighting the urge. Knowing whats on my mind is true, but what im resisting aint right. Cant hide it, You prolly already know... Dont get me wrong, its just you n me..... but F/CCCCK!!!!

"When the lights don’t glow the same way that they use to and I finally get a moment to myself I will realize you were everything I’m missing and you tell me your in love with someone else"

I HATE

Staying up late doing projects, because i procrastinate so much!!! ugh! i just finished my stupid history project on the philippines... and im looking forward to my 2 hours of sleep!! >=|

Gooodnight

Thoughts, and Feelings?

I was thinking... And wondering... what's my life gonna be like after high school? What will happen between myself and the friends that i currently have. It would suck to lose touch with them, already hearing from my older family members that they lost touch with basically ALL their bestfriends from high school. Its gonna suck, if it comes to that conclusion. i might as well enjoy what i have right now, before i anything at all... Stay makin those wishes at 1111 tho =)

Kickrocks =|

"Dealt with everything god has thrown my way so far, and for whatever else he has in store for me in my future, I keep my head up and eyes open, and I'm ready to take the impact."

Chunk it

I hella forgot bout the incident at quickly's. Left neil n gb hella pissed ahaha. An anonymous person MICHAEL T. that fag tried to start stuff with gb, his ass walked away, cos he knew he was gonna get his ass beat! aha, yeah that was it.

Laaaaaterrr!

It Was Friday Night, And I Was Feelin Ahh-Ight!!

MINIMUM DAY TODAY! Today was like perfect, except for all the homework and other stuff that i needed to copy during school. The weather was sunny finally! So today, i went to school and then my sister picked me up to go home. Took a nap, then went to quicklys to chill with everyone. Trina, she's the best, always makin me smile when im with her =D BUT! She had to leave with TAE to go home. Just chilled with the bros after n we played this sick card game thing, hella fun but still have red hand marks on my arm... Then after, we sat and "relaxed" at neil's house, got picked up, went to tapioca express, got dropped off back at neils, went to gb's to see the baby pitbull that was there, then went back to neil's, chilled till 230, biked home, and now im here, posting this blog. Sorry, My.Day.Is.Really.Boring. Have a good one =)

OH AND DONT FORGET TO SET YOUR CLOCKS FORWARD 1 HOUR! DAYLIGHT SAVINGS

Goooodnight.

Just A Big Thank You!

I wanted to thank everyone for everything that they have ever done for me. I dont know why i am doing this right now, but it just came to me, and i just realized how much everyone i have encountered in my life that truly means something to me, has helped me so much, thank god i found alla you. ilovealllyouguys =) Nohomo haha THANK YOU!!!!

Oh yeah, 438 ON MINES!!!

Stressin

OMFG!!!! Too much stuff goin on!!! Wtffffff!!!! I have hella stuff to do, for tomorrow, and i havent even started!!!! Stupid final draft for english, Geometry grade is f/ckin DECREASING =(, Chemistry is a beeezy, and then SPANISH 3.... why the hell is there projects for a language class.... MANN! I need a break from all this nonsense.... =( Goodbye.

"Can you hear my heart? It's cryin out for you"

Not Feelin, This Weather =/

So yeah, today wasn't that great of a deal. I woke up at 735AM which is the time that school starts =( i quickly get up and get ready as fast as i can and my sister, who literally HATES driving me to school, brings me to school. I arrive at, what, around 745 ish. Block Days, 2 Block days a week, one with odd classes, the next with even classes, 2 hours each =( they are the WORSTT!!! I picked the wrong day to be late, my world history teacher, Ms. Nealy despises me because i am ALWAYS late to her class haha. Well her class was the same as always... boring but chill. Then we had brunch... again, same as always. I go through my stupid geometry test during 4th period like its nothing though... i might've cheated on one or two problems hehe. So what! Everyone does it!!! After that its lunch, and i end up having to work on my Stupid.Spanish.3 homework. I strongly DISLIKE that class. Its hella hard, and i cant understand as well as EVERYONE ELSE in that stupid class! And surprisingly, 6th period ends quickly and after school comes. I find out it started to rain... i hate rain. So i go home. And make some TANG that i have, like every other filipino family has, haha! Thanks to the rain, i am subject to staying home all day, doing this.... Arright then thats basically it, LATER FOR NOW!!!

Cant get this song outta my head. "YOU'RE THE BEST I EVER HAD"

First Post. Wassup tho! =)

New to this Blogging hype. Inspired by friends/kirs who constantly kept saying," Marc i think you should blog!" Hahaha, fasho then cousin, i got u, and i made one =) The name is Marc. I am Filipino. I am currently attending Highschool. i live in the Bay Area. All bout my BROS and friends, Strictly FAMBASED. I have my bad days =/.... you'll see... hahaha =D But thats it for now! Laate.

can't forget 438! onmines.